woke up quite late today. at like 9+
cleared up my table a little, but it's still quite messy cause i had to rush off for my physio session @ kembangan
first time there. my physio was this female indian lady
she's quite nice luh.
helped me to massage and all to loosen my muscles
turn out my back muscles and all are SUPER tight.
and it was just hell on the bed.
it hurt like hell when she press and all.
but i survived anyway.
after that she thought me how to rotate my pelvis. DAMN WEIRD.
when she showed me im like 'huh you can do this with your pelvis?!?'
never knew so
and i suck at rotating my pelvis, super hard i tell you..
and she told me how to stretch like almost my whole lower body + back.
super alot of exercises.. i think im gonna need like 1 and a half hour to finish all the exercises in 1 day.
anyway i spent like 1 hour 20mins at the place and it costed me only 50bucks. quite cheap
and it's really good! the physio helped me to tape somemore.
next appointment's on wednesday so yeap, looking forward to it.

while walking to kembangan mrt station
i saw this old lady tripping over a step and all down
she was with her granddaughter who was like. what. 6-7 years old?
she kind of cut her toe and one piece of her skin like came off then it was bleeding like mad.
her granddaughter of course damn scared then was like crying
then me and this woman went to help her.
all the blood kinda grossed me out. after awhile she say no need help alr
so we went off.

anyway. my left arm hurts like shit now.
when i use force on it then theres this stinging feeling
not like muscle aching but idk. like being poked by a needle?
and the pain is like OUCHHHHHHHHHHHH.
zzz dunno what happened to it.

been skipping meals nowadays.
no lunch, no dinner, or just having breakfast for 1 whole day.
sometimes i just feel so down.
hmmmm.
i need someone who i can really talk to.
but i wonder who.

I HAVE YET TO FINISH STUDYING.
and it's 4days away.
this mid years isnt just another exam.
passing it means ALOT to me and i really really hope i will pass.
the expectations are so high, i just hope that i will meet it.

im so stressed. everyone around me seems to be coping well, or at least better than me.
tell me why i cant do it.

God save me please

quite long since i last posted.
so.......

firstly diva.
kuan ren fetched me hx wx and potz there so i didnt have to wake up so early
the weather was rather nice. like gonna rain like that
there was shelter so not so bad lah cause after that it poured.
first ever futsal competition i joined
teamed with hx potz ama karen joanne suxian and danae who didnt come cause of her ankle D:
the whole event was FUN!
i mean like good exposure and all to play with girls all over the country?
omg singapore is soooooo small!
but ya, more experience playing.
and just to enjoy ourselves
in the end we got kicked out off the quarter finals i think?
hahah but it was a good experience and we were all damn shagged after that cause we played on our own also, which was just plain craziness.
hahah. dinner @ jurong point. and a long long mrt ride home after that.

had a few kick abouts in school also in the past 2 weeks.
and in the most recent one on wednesday
my back pain kinda came back. D:
i dont know why but yeah it came back and then now sometimes still pain and stuffs
haizzzz. dont know when it will really heal and stuffs.
it never seems to heal, sadly..

anyway went to eat with coach and some seniors at udders yesterday on betny's first working day
quite nice luh.
spent quite a bit of time there chatting and all.
makes me things of some things. which i cant say here =X

world cup is kinda boring this year.
referees are just plain fail, lousy. bad decision making
just spoils the game sometimes.

watched toy story 3 today. and karate kid the other day. both quite nice luh. yup.
worth my money (:

oh and had lunch with sooks bet hx rach and jes bfr watching karate kid that day.
so much for mentee mentor lunch-.-
but it was fun and stuffs luh. yuppppppppppp.

ok just random stuffs lah. just to update this dead blog
ok gtg. mid years in less than 10days.
I MUST STUDY 10HOURS A DAY.
CYA

today was the first day in my 16+ years of my life that i freaking woke up so so late @ 2.30pm.
the best thing was i was supposed to wake up at 8.
wtheck right!
i skipped breakfast, woke up immediately lunch. this is so weird.
i never slept pass my alarm for 6 and a half hours before!
totally couldnt believe the time when i woke up.
this is crazy!
it's like i wasted so much time just to freaking sleep.
the past few days also. never ever seem to be able to wake up whenever my alarm rings in the morning.
someone tell me im okay...



ANYWAY.
past 2 days of going out was fun!
first on wednesday i went shopping with tim and wanjun.
walked around 313 and tried on a dress but didnt buy it.
after awhile went to eat at ljs but of course i didnt eat. heh.
had some bread and sushi instead.
after that went to cine to buy movie tickets to prince of persia!
johncelin came to watch also.
the movie was NICE. the girl was hawt like tim said.
the plot and all was good.
worth my 6bucks
went to meet up with khai ama joanne karen after that.
went to lido to eat, i didnt eat though. haha.
went off after that.

yesterday!
went to daphne' house @ like 10.30. was late for half an hour but nvm heh.
had breakfast there, which was french toast. waaaaa damn nicee!
studied there a little.
it was crazy studying with hx rach and daphne trying to go through chemical energetics together.
but okay lah at least i got listen a bit here and there. :/
got this blue top from daphne that i think im gonna wear on tuesday.
after like super long of wasting time and all we finally left her house and went shopping
walked around 313.
tried on some dresses which were SUPER WEIRD!
hahhah. damn funny luh. went to buy a pair of shorts.
then after that went to cotton on which was flooding with people
super packed.
bought a pair of shades for 5bucks! and a shirt for 5 bucks. CHEAP RIGHT! (:
after that went to suki sushi @ cine to have sushi!
so much sushi in just 2 days!
spent like 9bucks. make me broke only hahha :/
after that went to ion
and daphne and huixin were super hilarious trying to pronounce the names of the shops.
went to ion and walked around. didnt buy much lah. just a pen refill from muji-.-
rachel bought this super nice blue bag!
after that took the train to tampines
where i met my mum and went to buy a tank top and a checkered shirt
thank god i didnt buy the one at river island that was like 67bucks! :/
saw huituan,ka,jamie,lixuan and elize @ tampines1 while i was having dinner @ toastbox. haha
took a cab back after.

i am really exhausted.
tmr's diva. whole day gonna be spent at jurong east.
hope i can play, and play well. long time never play alr!

clic camp was okay as a whole.
things that stood out was the disc profiling, the team games, sharing of problems among the leaders in our group and the bash night.
bash night was awesome, even though it was quite embarrassing. :/
disc profiling made me know myself more and learnt how to interact with people of different personalities i guess.
team games were FUN! helped us quite a fair bit in the bonding and all
and the sharing of problems was great, it let us know that our problems were faced by people in other ccas too
and that youre never facing it alone.
never thought that i would really dance infront of soooooo many people, and what a dance it was!
but nevertheless i did it, and it was SUPER EMBARRASSING. but i guess i enjoyed myself and it made the experience even more unique(:
after the camp i got to know more people, made more friendships, strengthen some friendships.
good experience, one camp that i would never forget.

so now i shall get some rest and start studying for mid years tmr.
28days. dont flunk pleaseeeeeeee.
i want to start training asap!

it's so hard to contain
everything that's inside me

post season was supposed to be more relaxed and for me to catch up in my work.
BUTTTTTTTTTTTTT. it wasn't possible.
had stuff on almost everyday after school.
went to support as many matches as possible.
floorball, soccer, basketball, etc.
this week was a killer, even though it has yet to end.
monday was supposedly FULL DAY!
but... i spent it doing saikang in school for the youth sports conference which was from tues to thurs, which ended today.
i am so freaking screwed up in my mind now.
so to try and relax i shall post about the past 4 days.
mmmmm, monday came to school at like 8?
went to do all the saikang and stuffs. was actually rather excited about jts which was gonna be held in the evening.
arranged chairs, tables, freaking damn alot of goodie bags and did lots of stuffs.
went to parkway to have lunch then came back to bath and got ready for registration.
went for this briefing and guess what?
registration was push back by like 1hour!!!!
talk about good planning. i booked the cab to fetch the snrs to come @ 445. and then this crap.
so went to rush about trying to change the timing of the cab, and even almost ended up booking a BUS to fetch us all the way to yishun for jts. thank god we could change the time.
so did registration stuffs with rachel.
super hilarious....
there was once this guy came to register and he was registering under the name 'candy' and his sex stated obviously was FEMALE. then rach was like 'why are you female?'
HAHAHAH almost died. turned out the guy was registering for his friend laaa. hahahahah.
yup so anyway registration finished at almost 530 which was the time the taxi came.
and had to rush to call the driver to wait for the SENIORS WHO TOOK FOREVER TO CHANGE AND GET READY TO GO OUT! -.-
anywayyyyyy. in the end finally got them there and they just went mad crazy over the huge taxi-cum-van thingy.
it's damn cool right seniors? hehehehe.
so anyway after that rushed to put the concourse back to what it originally was and packed everything then went to minyee's house
spent quite a fair bit of time deciding on how to go.
in the end took cab. 2 cabs in total. freaking spent 50+ in total!!!

ANYWAY MINYEE'S HOUSE IS DAMN NICE!
and the room which she booked to hold the seniors damn fun.
got table tennis, pool and err. some game shit idk how to say. in arcade have one hahaha
anyway after that went to bring the seniors to the bbq pit and we started eating and stuffs.
the food was rather good. thank you to those who cooked.
played basketball and tennis. damn fail sia me. tennis is hard to play! never played in my whole life so this was the first ever.
but its quite fun luh.
anyway after that had dessert and then we went home.
took about 1hour and 30mins to reach home cos fetched like 6 ppl home hahahah.
took forever man.

tues to thurs was just ticketing, saikang and sports booth.
quite crap la. waste my time and energy. quite shagged from the 4 days....
and the 4days kinda showed me different people's personality and stuffs
and i kinda learnt some things from it.
sounds stupid and all but ya.
lots to say but idk how to express and typing them here isnt the best thing to do.
later kena hated or some shit. idk. hahahah.

hmmmmm. someone always has to be the bad guy, and that person is just damn suay.

to interact with maturity; to practice what you preach.
not easy.
random but w/e. im going crazy bottling everything.

went to crash tj's carnival thingy today with huixin after the ysc shit.
climbed over the side gate and got in for free.
actually there wasn't anything much la.
just random performances everywhere
and booths selling food and drinks.
yuppp.
played soccer there with some of the tj people for about 45mins or so i think?
quite shiok, considering how long i haven't played.
it was rather fun luh.
finally met some of my friends whom i haven't seen for a long time.
good to know that they still remember me hahaha :)
went home at like 10.30

tmr's vesak day holiday.
gna go annabel's house! meeting 2E people. should be fun.
clic camp from sat to mon.
rather busy now. havent started studying.
everyone wish me luck.
im like at 0 for every subject.
maybe i should take tuition for every subject.
but then i got no money.
if i were rich................. zzzzzzzzz.
if only......

shall go to bed soon.
my back is tired. and so is my mind.
goodnight.

dedicated to vjsg:
what a season.
what a memorable final @ jalan besar
we fought till the very last second and in the end we emerged victorious.
the six months of training really paid off and im really glad that i joined vjsg.
it is one decision that i will never ever regret in my whole life.
its only six months into my vjsg journey and yet the impacts that it had on my life has already changed me so much and allowed me to become a better person, off and on the pitch.
i have myself now another family, one where all of us has stuck through the pain, through the happy and sad times, through all the problems and everything that we went through as a team.
all the double trainings during the december holidays, the friendlies that we had, the super wonderful and fun trip to perth with the seniors and many more.
all the memories will never leave me.

to the team:
i really wanna thank each and every one, including the happy feet, for putting their 100% and more for the team
it is the hardwork that each and everyone of us put in that allowed us to reach all the way to the finals and win it
all our blood, tears, sweat and pain has finally paid off and im very proud and honoured to be part of this team, to be part of the miracle in our finals
we left the field without any regrets and our believe and faith in the team is really unbelieveable.
GOOD JOB GIRLS!

to the seniors:
YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST SENIORS EVER!
I LOVE ALL OF YOU!
i learnt alot alot alot from you guys, both on and off the pitch.
thank you for accepting me into the team when i first came down to train
even though it was like damn awkward and i was really damn scared and shy then. haha
but after training with you guys more and more
after knowing you guys better, i'm really happy that i have seniors like you guys who really inspire me and push me on
now that we won't be training anymore and you guys are gonna start to mug for your A levels....
i just wanna wish all the best in studying!
study hard okay!
because i will be studying too! (:

to my beloved batch mates:
now is the start of our season
so we'll have to work hard because very very soon it will be our turn
i just want us to learn from the seniors
and let them be our inspiration
seeing them push themselves past their limits for vjsg
i hope we will too next season.
i love you guys! from the bottom of my heart.

to the grandseniors/grandgrandseniors:
thank you for coming down to support us during our matches
thank you for coming down during our trainings and helping out during our trainings
seeing how dedicated all of you are to vjsg really touched me and make me work even harder than ever
and it kept me going throughout the whole season
despite the injuries or pains that i felt
once again thank you and i love you guys too! :D

to mr lim(if you ever read haha):
thank you for being such a patient coach
telling us all our mistakes and telling us where we can improve on
thank you for dedicating so much of your time to the team
thank you for selflessly contributing to the team
it is because of you that has helped me improve into a better player than when i first joined back in november 09
so thank you very very much!

it has been an incredible journey, which will continue as we(vjsg10/11) start our season now
but first, we have to work hard off the pitch, which is to study hard for our midyears!
all the way girls!
I LOVE YOU!