I HAVE YET TO FINISH STUDYING.
and it's 4days away.
this mid years isnt just another exam.
passing it means ALOT to me and i really really hope i will pass.
the expectations are so high, i just hope that i will meet it.

im so stressed. everyone around me seems to be coping well, or at least better than me.
tell me why i cant do it.

God save me please

quite long since i last posted.
so.......

firstly diva.
kuan ren fetched me hx wx and potz there so i didnt have to wake up so early
the weather was rather nice. like gonna rain like that
there was shelter so not so bad lah cause after that it poured.
first ever futsal competition i joined
teamed with hx potz ama karen joanne suxian and danae who didnt come cause of her ankle D:
the whole event was FUN!
i mean like good exposure and all to play with girls all over the country?
omg singapore is soooooo small!
but ya, more experience playing.
and just to enjoy ourselves
in the end we got kicked out off the quarter finals i think?
hahah but it was a good experience and we were all damn shagged after that cause we played on our own also, which was just plain craziness.
hahah. dinner @ jurong point. and a long long mrt ride home after that.

had a few kick abouts in school also in the past 2 weeks.
and in the most recent one on wednesday
my back pain kinda came back. D:
i dont know why but yeah it came back and then now sometimes still pain and stuffs
haizzzz. dont know when it will really heal and stuffs.
it never seems to heal, sadly..

anyway went to eat with coach and some seniors at udders yesterday on betny's first working day
quite nice luh.
spent quite a bit of time there chatting and all.
makes me things of some things. which i cant say here =X

world cup is kinda boring this year.
referees are just plain fail, lousy. bad decision making
just spoils the game sometimes.

watched toy story 3 today. and karate kid the other day. both quite nice luh. yup.
worth my money (:

oh and had lunch with sooks bet hx rach and jes bfr watching karate kid that day.
so much for mentee mentor lunch-.-
but it was fun and stuffs luh. yuppppppppppp.

ok just random stuffs lah. just to update this dead blog
ok gtg. mid years in less than 10days.
I MUST STUDY 10HOURS A DAY.
CYA

today was the first day in my 16+ years of my life that i freaking woke up so so late @ 2.30pm.
the best thing was i was supposed to wake up at 8.
wtheck right!
i skipped breakfast, woke up immediately lunch. this is so weird.
i never slept pass my alarm for 6 and a half hours before!
totally couldnt believe the time when i woke up.
this is crazy!
it's like i wasted so much time just to freaking sleep.
the past few days also. never ever seem to be able to wake up whenever my alarm rings in the morning.
someone tell me im okay...



ANYWAY.
past 2 days of going out was fun!
first on wednesday i went shopping with tim and wanjun.
walked around 313 and tried on a dress but didnt buy it.
after awhile went to eat at ljs but of course i didnt eat. heh.
had some bread and sushi instead.
after that went to cine to buy movie tickets to prince of persia!
johncelin came to watch also.
the movie was NICE. the girl was hawt like tim said.
the plot and all was good.
worth my 6bucks
went to meet up with khai ama joanne karen after that.
went to lido to eat, i didnt eat though. haha.
went off after that.

yesterday!
went to daphne' house @ like 10.30. was late for half an hour but nvm heh.
had breakfast there, which was french toast. waaaaa damn nicee!
studied there a little.
it was crazy studying with hx rach and daphne trying to go through chemical energetics together.
but okay lah at least i got listen a bit here and there. :/
got this blue top from daphne that i think im gonna wear on tuesday.
after like super long of wasting time and all we finally left her house and went shopping
walked around 313.
tried on some dresses which were SUPER WEIRD!
hahhah. damn funny luh. went to buy a pair of shorts.
then after that went to cotton on which was flooding with people
super packed.
bought a pair of shades for 5bucks! and a shirt for 5 bucks. CHEAP RIGHT! (:
after that went to suki sushi @ cine to have sushi!
so much sushi in just 2 days!
spent like 9bucks. make me broke only hahha :/
after that went to ion
and daphne and huixin were super hilarious trying to pronounce the names of the shops.
went to ion and walked around. didnt buy much lah. just a pen refill from muji-.-
rachel bought this super nice blue bag!
after that took the train to tampines
where i met my mum and went to buy a tank top and a checkered shirt
thank god i didnt buy the one at river island that was like 67bucks! :/
saw huituan,ka,jamie,lixuan and elize @ tampines1 while i was having dinner @ toastbox. haha
took a cab back after.

i am really exhausted.
tmr's diva. whole day gonna be spent at jurong east.
hope i can play, and play well. long time never play alr!

clic camp was okay as a whole.
things that stood out was the disc profiling, the team games, sharing of problems among the leaders in our group and the bash night.
bash night was awesome, even though it was quite embarrassing. :/
disc profiling made me know myself more and learnt how to interact with people of different personalities i guess.
team games were FUN! helped us quite a fair bit in the bonding and all
and the sharing of problems was great, it let us know that our problems were faced by people in other ccas too
and that youre never facing it alone.
never thought that i would really dance infront of soooooo many people, and what a dance it was!
but nevertheless i did it, and it was SUPER EMBARRASSING. but i guess i enjoyed myself and it made the experience even more unique(:
after the camp i got to know more people, made more friendships, strengthen some friendships.
good experience, one camp that i would never forget.

so now i shall get some rest and start studying for mid years tmr.
28days. dont flunk pleaseeeeeeee.
i want to start training asap!

it's so hard to contain
everything that's inside me